he died for me
14042006-they say every good friday it will rain cause it was the day Jesus died for our sins...very cliche i know...but it rained today...and that made me realise how far away from God i have become...how i feel right now...is as if i have become a totally different person...not so innocent...not so true to myself and God...i'm not sure what i have become...ever since the o levels until now...so much has happened in my life that i do not know how to respond anymore...don't know if thats good or bad...yahh...its almost one quater of the year...what shall i do to make my life more meaningful? maybe i'm trying too hard...i don't know...seriously...its just different...maybe like how jona always tells me, i should start to grow up...no more fairytale...no more perfect life...but i don't want it this way...its just not me...sigghh...i'm just at this lost region now...i miss the life i used to have...i miss the smiles...the smiles from the bottom of our hearts...i shouldn't have walked into this mess...it may seem like how it used to be like in the past when jona and i just go around eating and trying crazy food...but the feeling is different...i still think about things i shouldn't be thinking about...but thanks anyway...jona...for always being here for me...for this one quater and counting fraction of my life..

today was the only day this whole week that when i reached home, the sky was still bright...thats how jc robs me of my own life.