I MISS OuR hiGh tEa daYs wHen It wAs JusT us AnD tHe VilLaGe aT HollAnD...


its sad...when you think about it and realise how much people change...its like you stare at the person and realise...ohmy...this is not the person i once knew...its like...just the shell of the person...the soul has been taken away...and its sad...cause it feels so foreign...thats how i feel...its like you look at the person and wonder if he/she feels comfortable...won't he/she feel weird...unless he/she reallie has changed...but you can't really blame the person...people DO change...like me...though i still trip over de evil chairs in pj...seriously..they're evil...i can trip like so many times in a day...and sure...i still forget things and get excited over typically nothing...but...i know i'm not the same...at least i feel that i'm not the same...i've just been having this weird feeling these few days...sighh...but then again...i'm not very sure lahh...i just keep thinking rubbish. yahh...

went to TIONG BARU PLAZA for lunch today after church...and its like a food haven there!!! lots of my favourite "rubbish" food...like long johns... XXL chicken...old chang kee...BUBBLE TEA!!!all de DIAN XIN stalls...wahh....felt like going for a food expedition at that moment...i think thats what i would like to do...go around the world tasting different kinds of food...soaking in different cultures...helping different people...

i feel like i'm not living my christian life the correct way...i confess...i do not think about GOD 24hrs a day when i'm doing everything that i do....maybe not even 12 hours a day...am i backsliding? hopefully not...i'll pray about it...its like...i used to be very close to GOD...when i was in sec3-4 then i reallie did not confide in him for a very long period of time because of certain matters...and now i'm thinking"would He want me back?" how could i have forsaken Him? i feel like a failure...
_______________just pack me in a suitcase and send me off to a nunnery____________