we're driving away the sunset, we're slowly fading
watching the 9pm show on channelU on a saturday night made me see the things that people do when they're in love. The sacrifices they make and how everyone suffers in the end no matter who decided to make the sacrifice. very cliche i know...all gu tai shows are like that but it was reallie sad...veryveryveryvery...the worse thing is,the show had nice looking people in it which makes it even sadder when someone dies...ohwells...but anyways...yahh...EMOTIONS are typically our soul i guess...and if i choose i'd rather not have a soul...really...it does no good to me...frankly, i have not given up or rather i am unable to give up. Don't ask me why, ask my emotions. The feelings just keep coming back, haunting me and its hard. I'd just stone...i can stone while doing my work, i can stone even while the lecturer is blabbing away. yahh...jonathan has prohibited me to call him jona though everyone else calls him that...don't know why me as an exception. maybe cause i'm the only one left which may be the closest to newtown days...which may be a good thing cause i don't want to change into some jc bitch.i just want my old life back. not that my new life is terrible but yahh...i miss certain aspects of just being me. its certainly not easy.for me and mostly for jonathan cause he gets affected when i'm in my depressed mode. perhapes one day i'd be able to say "it was fun while it lasted" but not for now.
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