i'm so dead. with as much God's grace i can ever get, i'm so dead.
ahHhh...i failed the damn math exam...so sorry for the crude language but i'm super stressed. stressed cause i know there are expectations out there for me yet i'm afraid i can't satisfy them. i mean...its like pioneer junior college math exam and i can't even pass?! what about the a levels?!imagine...fighting with people passing hwachong math exam and i can't even pass pjc's math exam?!
but i confess: i have not been studying enough...at least not seriously enough...though i know i have expectations to fufil...i mean...come on...i'm from pjc not acjc...
ever since i went to newtown my mother has been overly paranoid overly whaatever...with my psle score i could only go to newtown...what do you expect? i still did reasonably well there right? so dumb...the more you force me the more unwilling i would want to study the more unwilling the worse i do...DON'T MAKE ME STAY AT HOME! i can't study at home! which part of that sentence do you not understand? duuhhhh...i'm dying...
time for me to get serious...time for my brain to be smarter and less slower and blur and whatever...i hate it. i hate studying life...i'm a rebelious child...what do you expect? i'm the middle child...kill me if you can. just don't torture me with your expectations. i don't mind. seriously.