the weeks not getting better...
had arts day today...my class stall was like typically nothing...and i definately did not help out at all...i'm so so sorrie...i just bought the ice (: yupp...reason being is that yahh...i'm not having much drive lately...i'm dying as you know...jonathan's stall was fun...gots chocolate fountain...yah...had investiture rehersal AGAIN today...its quite fun lahh...just talking crap with the other house ex cos but yahh...lots of things to be done...after i reached home at around 6, my mummy and all the girls were suppose to go out for dinner but somehow a conflict arose so yahh...everyone was just stonning or something...and i was reallie pissed...don't know whats wrong with my fricking family...yesh. i've given up. God just take my soul already. my life is a blast yet its filled with much nausea. can't take it anymore. I just realised: i haven't been crying lately cause i've been f a k ing too much smiles that my body forgot it had emotions. so yah. cried today and though it was painful it felt great to know i'm not made of stone. seriously, my life can't get any worse. i don't know. i'm short of breath as if i've been pushed to a limit which doesn't even exist. sigh. and jonathan seems stressed enough so i reallie don't want to call him and make a fuss. errrgghhh...
fake smiles is a die hard habit

goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved,
the one thing that i tried to hold on to.