common tests are seriously not good. especially for me ):
oh wells...i could easily get away with it by acting reallie depressed and all..but the point is: i can't act depressed. as in, sometimes i reallie REALLIE upset about things but...i can't seem to keep a black face all de time especially when i'm in school (: errrrggghhh...how? how? how????
anyways...APRIL'S AGENDA:
tuitions
tuitions
and MORE tuitions ):
nothing else can tempt me. nothing else would make me budge.
guess yumcha at wan zai would be impossible for me.
goodbye playing life.
its over.
forgot to eat dinner today?yehh...don't know why.so i'm stuffing myself with seaweed now. :X


WILLINGLY, He came to this world,
walked and talked with sinners young and old
love that He showed,love that He gave,
love that brought Him, to calvary

CALVARY, the place where i will never e'er forget
at the cross, my saviour gave His life for me
my heart will be thy throne, my life is wholly thine
change me, teach me and mould me, in thy will. ((:

first common test result received today already tells me how i will do for de other papers. not a good sign. very confused. I guess even if my parents don't ground me i will self-ground myself. i just hope ma pa don't have to yet make another trip down to pjc. i think i've broken their hearts more than enough times. whats up with me mann...
-utterly depressed.
jane! anti-depressent pills pls!

i hate people who lie. despite the fact that i don't have the right to do so.

a butterfly only lives for two weeks. now, that is what i call tragic fate.

tell me, why is there this feeling.

can't study.don't know why. why are nerds called nerds? cause dey study all the time or cause they are smart? either way i can't be a nerd no matter how hard i try :/ errrhhhgghhhh


Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me





each word penned onto this paper
parchment soaked with tears
each thought blown with that gust of wind
nothing left to hide
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i've wasted three months yet it won't get to me. i don't know what i'm doing and i don't know how i'm going to survive. have you ever felt lost and confused? i think this is when i feel most of it.
ahhh....super tired. of what i don't know. probably everything.

went to de airport to fetch zoe and jona yesterday. took train from je all de way to changi. started our journey at 8 reached at 2110hrs waited until 2222hrs for them to come out and all we got was a "ehh!!!you all came!!! okay bye!!!" yah...less than 3mins i think...and we had to toot all de way back by train again...

i knew zoes parents would come so i thought maybe i'll take de train with jona but apparently shurong they all came so he went off with them.. disappointment? i won't deny it but not so much... i guess i didn't expect much in the first place. so zoe passed me de msg" jona said that he reallie misses you but his other clique people came so cannot go with you" truthfully i think i would feel better without him passing that msg. yahh.

alot of times, people call not wanting to know how you are but just to tell you about what they have gone through. is it very hard to just to let your friend tell you what happened to her as well? i guess its hard just to listen or just to care about how your friend has been that one week. i guess i have stopped expecting too much from him. higher expectations brings greater disappointment. end of story. at least someone still calls out of concern (:
i ought to count my blessings bah (:

yahh...like what kester said on his blog...our class people have a new fatish of gossiping...its to add excitment i guess but its definately not a nice feeling when de gossip is about you...anyways...i think my class people just think too much...yepp...heh.