each word penned onto this paper
parchment soaked with tears
each thought blown with that gust of wind
nothing left to hide
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i've wasted three months yet it won't get to me. i don't know what i'm doing and i don't know how i'm going to survive. have you ever felt lost and confused? i think this is when i feel most of it.
ahhh....super tired. of what i don't know. probably everything.

went to de airport to fetch zoe and jona yesterday. took train from je all de way to changi. started our journey at 8 reached at 2110hrs waited until 2222hrs for them to come out and all we got was a "ehh!!!you all came!!! okay bye!!!" yah...less than 3mins i think...and we had to toot all de way back by train again...

i knew zoes parents would come so i thought maybe i'll take de train with jona but apparently shurong they all came so he went off with them.. disappointment? i won't deny it but not so much... i guess i didn't expect much in the first place. so zoe passed me de msg" jona said that he reallie misses you but his other clique people came so cannot go with you" truthfully i think i would feel better without him passing that msg. yahh.

alot of times, people call not wanting to know how you are but just to tell you about what they have gone through. is it very hard to just to let your friend tell you what happened to her as well? i guess its hard just to listen or just to care about how your friend has been that one week. i guess i have stopped expecting too much from him. higher expectations brings greater disappointment. end of story. at least someone still calls out of concern (:
i ought to count my blessings bah (:

yahh...like what kester said on his blog...our class people have a new fatish of gossiping...its to add excitment i guess but its definately not a nice feeling when de gossip is about you...anyways...i think my class people just think too much...yepp...heh.