hmm so 2009 has arrived.

how quickly it came and how swiftly oheight went by...now i have to refer my J1 days as last last last year. omg....

time flies and so do feelings. hur. maybe its the start of school. maybe its cause i'm finally feeling the pressure of getting a excellent cap score. maybe it is cause of the horrendous amount of projects i know i have to complete in order to get my well deserved 3 month holiday.

or maybe it is just as simple as a change of heart.

i feel different now when i look you in the eye...i feel different when i wave goodbye.

i dont know. maybe its time to grow up.

quit being so dependent, quit thinking silly thoughts.

i dont know how long more i can hold on

everytime i want to let go, something happens and i get pulled in again.

its a vicious cycle. a bittersweet kind of thing.(no idea what its called)

think its time, to do my own locomotion. to get away and be alone.

perfect time. coop myself up in my studio and have alone time with pink foam and a red nose.

its like cutting a perfectly round and smooth cake.

but all good things eventually come to an end isnt it?